U ~

because of u ..
i start learning more on how to use photoshop 
ahh..really love d photoshop now .. i know now its was all dis photoshop thing that make a pic even nicer

because of u ..
i actually chat with strangers ..well ..on fcbk .. ^^

because of u ..
im stuck to twitter for d 1st few days ..keep checkin for urs update ~ eventhough a tad bit sad bout it ..but when i view back d vids .. part of d sadness just disappear

because of u ..
its my 1st time buying thing online ..& i am glad that the people at d bank was friendly enough to guide me on d bank-in stuff..

because of u ..
look like a crazy fan for a split second there ..just so i can get your attention XD
 (so00-not-me)


AND LASTLY..
because of u ..
its the 1st concert i had ever been to!! ...kamsahapnida~
 jeongmal kamsahapnida for SUPER SHOW 3 ~
and i cant stop thinking about u , boys ~
an event to mark next year i hope

p.s: to dong hae ..hopefully i will be able to give this doll to you in ss4 ~ >.<

reali a fucked up day ..just as i tot 2011 was probably d best year..god alway like to slam me down like this
just cos i ask what if i sell ss3 tic at rm400  ..in which i 2 protested but now was 2 last mins d..n e way i was just sayin rite ..y make a small matter into big matter ??????
at least u ask u 1st ..not enuf ? alway like 2 said how old r u d ? still act like dat ?! somemore is eldest child ..n i somemore got make i big jar of juice for them ..n he said u go n keep ur juice .;..no 1 wanna drink .. do u noe how hurt its when i heard dis ?? somemore said y born child like u ?! ..ya ..mayb cos i was d 1st ..n mayb i wasnt urs oso ..mayb they swap me away ... i reali feel like killin myself ..u noe ?..n im not allow 2 cry ?! do u noe for all dis yr i ll alway cry silently ..n now u nag me for cryin oso ? i dun cry i do wat ? keep all d feelin in myself ? do u noe y i am wat im today ?! im gettin more n more negative as i grow ..its all becos of u all ,..,keep sayin oli negative thing bout me .. even d grandma oso same..i just,,hate u all la k ..u like d other more den me ..alway ..no matter where i go ..im just a nobody ..no 1 rmber me..no 1 whud even notice if im missin rite ..n they seem to live normally withoud me n e way ....
n u said how dare i challenge u ?! i reali hv d proof ..u dare u come n see .. somemore dare post at fcbk said im not ur punching bag ..some1 nd apologise to me ..wtf ..its u dat take me as punching bag 1st 1 lo ..u pms ka ?n U R D 1 dat said he shudnt go ..cos wat ? cos he dun appreciated it ..now wat u said huh ?all bcos of HIM ..d 1 dat got me into so much trouble ..findin ppl to buy d tic n all ...n now u scolded me ..reali bloody s*** la..u guy reali is talk c*** 1 ..
har ..wat got thing nd do oli find u ..hello ?! is not i suggest 1 kay ..is whose 's suggestion huh ?! u think urself la...ya ..i noe now its my fault for askin u a favour ..i shud had just make a box my own ..once agaijn ..its hers suggestion ..
c ..all this i dint said out to u ..i said out ..u said i answer back ..but i dont said out ..WILL U NOE D TRUTH ???? u may b dissapointed with me but im dissapointed with u 2...well mayb cos i was not as pretty as them so wat ever favour i ask now was a burden ?? u alway said u love me as well..but in front of outsider u edi kick me far away ..if it wasnt for d clay modellin lesson ..i think no 1 whud noe im ur daughter ...f*** la..i reali scare i cant control u noe..evi argument is makin me more n more timid ..
n y is it dat cos i stay there i hv to like zhao them n all ? ya la..ppl hse ma rite ..somemore hv 2 c their faces ,.eh ..{A} ..u oso control ur mouth la..im fat ..so wat ? den can u stop feedin me ? keep said me fat but feed me eat most of ur meal ..n d floor r i sweep like a month ago de lo ..how dare u said y my room de floor so clean but aunt's room de floor like so dusty ..i mana tahu !!den u look at her room oso noe she's not clean freak type of thing la..somemore complain said i din sweep their floor oli sweep mine ..n r ...imagine la..if b4 dis i din come stay there ..who on tv for u eviday ? no1 !! so i miss 1 day oli u oso want complain me d ..WTF !

fuh ,..i had stop cryin now..dat ;s just how lonely im ..dat i can only express my feelin here or else i might go pyscho >.<..nitez blog~

i thought this CNY was probably the one i look forward to the most after all this year ..

but i realise sometime things just dont go the way we want it to ..sadly ..

am caring is being too bossy ? i just dont get how ignorant to day parent can be ..

i am so tired of constantly asking them to come and eat ..they just keep running about ..

and when i told dad to at least keep an eye and feed her some .. 

then he said : " i also din complain ..u make noise for what ? "

sigh ..yesterday was what i thought to be a happy day ..... but as it turn out ..it just like the same old year ..the same thing keep repeating even though those chatty 1 werent around .. 

its as though i was invicible ..

they would probably just tell me ..go and mixed around la... 

but ottoke ? i am not the type to struck convo 1st .. so all i could do was sit there waiting ..

maybe its was just me being to emo ..but i just ...sigh 

there are alway those kind of people ...that got the best of both world..

they are pretty ,popular , smart .. and people would totally enjoy their companies..old and young 

but ME... people are just scare just by looking at me .. 

ya ..its my fault..my fault that i have monolid eyes ..

add to that fact ,,its make me looks even more scarier when i am not in d mood aka emo ..

really dunno how to describe my feeling now ..

i am used to crying silently everytime when emo .. 

scare of getting scolded if mom found out that i cried .. 

 and there this weird thing ..mom and dad alway envy people 's daughter ..

saying how people' daughter alway dress up so nicely ..

how they dress so maturely ..

do they ever think of my feeling ?? they make me feel as if they wish that girl was their daughter .. 

 but its just prove no matter how much i tried ...its no used .. 

even now when i wear differently ... all they could do was just stare ,..no comment at all.. 

ya ..i know how hard it is being a pretty girl 's sister ...

being constantly heard people said your sisters are beautiful ..then people would probably look at you as if you were alien out of nowhere .. 

[deary blog ..saranghae..you were the only one i could told all my feeling to ]

finally my whole f6 life knowledges have been dumped in the recycle bin ..haha..
well, physically..mentally ..not reali ..cant believe i would miss solvin math Q ..XD..

Anyway, im not sure whether i achieve the purpose my parent ask me study f6 or not ..
im not sure whether this is consider growing up ?
since i practically dump all those anime newspaper collection which i still favoured it like last year ..
but now..i looked at it...and  ..within 1 minute , set it aside to recycle ..oh well..and i actually gave my stickers away to my sis ..well..i still kept some...but only some k..

sigh .. din went out with friends at all since last day of exam..dunno why .. feel tired and moodless to go with friends..but no problem for shopping ..haha..

TIME PASSED SOOOOO SLOW !!

i tot it's been 2 weeks since exam ..end up, it's less than a week the last time i count..

next week gonna be busy ..busy goin out ..why does outing alway jumble up together ?! sigh..hopefully mom would understand ..hehe

p.s : while most homes are making 'tang yuan'.. im sittin here bored to dead ..apparently, v cant make it since it ll be like rollin d dead's eyeball..thus makin him ..uncomfortable ? something like dat ..well.. gonna go jusco and buy ready-made 1 tmrow ..haha

BFF ? HA-HA

I felt betrayed ..T.T 
DOES true friends really exist ?
i just dont get it ...how some ppl can get close with some1 n called them BFF .. 
next thing u  know ..they r a total stranger..
just..1 thing..pls dun go around sayin BEST FRIEND FOREVER if deep down ur heart ,u dun really mean it ..
nowaday everything is ..2 casual ..that ppl just say it 4 fun..  .. no matter how good u treat them n try to do all u can 4 them ..they just never appreciate it.. 
AND they dare to complain when frenz din do thing d way they 1 or treat them d way they 1 .. 
i dunno but 2 me all lil thing do matter ..
even if it just a msg sayin happy birthday ...
n recently i felt depressed because of her..i dunno whether she is lyin to me or wat ... 
but y cant u tell d truth ? arghh..watever k ..
u got ur new frenz..n i got mine ..
i guess i ll just delete her from my no 1 priority fm now onward .. 
u noe wat u r just so selfish .. or should i say greedy ? 
when no1 accompany u ..u come and find us..when u hv ur frenz back .. u just ..dump us .. 
so ..no more..if u cant make it .. 
i DUN CaRE .. i ll still arrange our gatherin n just hv fun ..without U

THINK TWICE !!

arghh...make TWO wrong decisions last week ..

i said YES and NO to the wrong thing ..

yes ..as in agree to take my frenz place in a kain rentang competition

and

no..when my dad told me about a miniature "toy poodle" that he saw at a shop !!

that NO ..i really regret saying it ..i said no cos dad said its a "toy poodle" ..but i dont think toy poodle looks like that !

AHHHH ...just found out I was wrong ...i din know that "toy poodle" can look ..like BELOW..XP

next thing is its cost round rm 1500... what about other costs ? i dunno ..but when they mention it to me ..they was like rm 1500 no big deal la ! HA-HA..how am i gonna bring up this subject eh ??!!

about the YES thing.. it makin me feel ...down ? i wasted my sleeping time to do lakaran ..and then after show the teacher , she's like not really lookin at it also ..nvrmind .. 

she said student "A"  show her d ..ask us combine ..give her on monday ..ok..fine..

then sunday .."A" told me that the teacher ask him to combine his lakaran and my frenz lakaran(she went and join poster comp..same tema) ..

i was like " WHTTTTT !" .. like that also can r ? then ..what is called competition ??!

PLUS ..she 's a counselling teacher leh ! 

the world really become so competitive till like that ?

in order to win ..apa cara PUN boleh LA ! LOLX

BUZZ OF D WEEK !

finally get to blog again ..after home comp ..kena virus ..thanx to me ! HA-HA..

TIME iS RUnnING OUT !!
LEFT 1 MOre WeeK TiLL MID YEAR EXAM ! but till now haven revise PA n econ !

startin from last month , everytime im free ,
i would tell myself to spend some time for PA ..
but every time ,right before picking up Pa books, i Will said , AiyaH ..still go time la , tmrow la ..tmrow i will study ! confirm ! ..zzz..
end up ..till now 14/5 also haven touch my "beautiful" PA txtbk ! ...
till when will i be able to change this kind of attitude ? sigh ..ughh...

and then today .. was informed that OW ( orientation week ) will be held NEXT WEEK ! somemore wed V , Seniors hv to stay back ..JUSt so juniors can get our signature !!
What kind of School os this ? OW more important ? wed is so damn tiring already n now hv to stay back for ow ! i al so dunno dis is happy news or wat ?!

HAppY news as in HM kena "diu" by JPS ! haha..padan muka ! SEE LA ..even JPS also scare she cant manage HSK ..till nd come and check whether OW is on or not ! LOL

hmm..here's another news .. Our HM said ... not to use FOUL words in school ..and also not to post bad comments on anything related to HSK on FACEBOOK !! she said if she found of any of us doing so ..action will be taken !

first of all .. im not sure ..maybe she has fcbk ..maybe not ..but the way she said thing .i think she do not hv fcbk acc ..WHY ? BCOS she dun even NOE that FCBK HAS PRIVACY SETTING !! LOL.. if v din add u ( in which 100% no one would do so ) and our profile has been set to private , do you think u can view our status ? and FCBK is different then Friendster , u din add d person u can view their profile at all ..
and also ..i doubt there are HSk spies on FCBK ! (must be extra careful ..WHO CARES ?!)

well, say watever u like..NO.. instead i should thanx u..what u said .is our jokes of the day ! GOOD LUCK IN FINDIN HSK'S STUDENTS BLOG n FCBK YA ! :P

p.s : HM will be in HSK for about 3 more years only ..after that u guys can bid farewell to her !^^
p.s.s : juniors said : GD MORNIN, SENIOR ..i dunno how to respond la ..haha